Year of weddings..

Since last August when my sister got married, two cousins got married and two brothers, finally culminating in this last picture perfect wedding in a lovely setting. It has been an exhausting year for me so far, the move and the job and just living has been tiring and I definitely don't feel I have lived life to the fullest so much this year, even though that was my intention. It has been good so far and with a few months to go, has had many more highs than lows and there has been a lot to celebrate and enjoy. I think that the year of being 40 has been all about change, and I guess that in itself can be exhausting. I think a year of stability would be good....but I think that will only happen when I get my own place. Having a home. That is the outstanding problem. I do not feel at home where I am, it is temporary living and I am not happy here. I need to be somewhere clean. It doesn't matter how often I clean, the air here is always full of dust and particles, the carpets are old and just not ever clean, even though they've been steam cleaned. I feel like my skin in crawling all the time. Until I move somewhere that I can finally rest in, I guess I will not really relax and rest properly.
Would be nice to have an outside area...but I guess in London, it's asking a bit much. A balcony would be great....
Other than the home situation, I still love living here and have the odd moment of happines and joy. No love though. Dates and met some nice people, but I have not fallen in love. Yet. That is to come.