Year of weddings..

Since last August when my sister got married, two cousins got married and two brothers, finally culminating in this last picture perfect wedding in a lovely setting. It has been an exhausting year for me so far, the move and the job and just living has been tiring and I definitely don't feel I have lived life to the fullest so much this year, even though that was my intention. It has been good so far and with a few months to go, has had many more highs than lows and there has been a lot to celebrate and enjoy. I think that the year of being 40 has been all about change, and I guess that in itself can be exhausting. I think a year of stability would be good....but I think that will only happen when I get my own place. Having a home. That is the outstanding problem. I do not feel at home where I am, it is temporary living and I am not happy here. I need to be somewhere clean. It doesn't matter how often I clean, the air here is always full of dust and particles, the carpets are old and just not ever clean, even though they've been steam cleaned. I feel like my skin in crawling all the time. Until I move somewhere that I can finally rest in, I guess I will not really relax and rest properly.
Would be nice to have an outside area...but I guess in London, it's asking a bit much. A balcony would be great....
Other than the home situation, I still love living here and have the odd moment of happines and joy. No love though. Dates and met some nice people, but I have not fallen in love. Yet. That is to come.

is blogging egotistical?

Got to say that I don't know why I do it cos I hope noone reads it! Girls, if you reading, it's probably for you all....anyways, London life is going well....loving my shoes as usual, but not been out dancing for soooooo long. It's like no-one goes dancing anymore, at least no-one I know. And I NEED to!
Work is full on and pretty exhausting, flat is bearable. Unpacked my books at last and stroked them lovingly, then went out and bought a whole lot more...second hand of course. Currently reading 3 at once and can't decide what to focus on. Keep meaning to take my camera out and take some pics of London, but don't want to look like the rest of the pretentious types who do that around here! hah! But I am gonna do it. Trying to keep fit, but its struggle, need to work on the running. Long summer of work ahead and not alot of people around so that's going to be interesting. Might get to the cinema more. But, really, life is good.

London life

Well, living near Columbia Rd didn't last long. It was okay for a while, but so expensive and so stressful. But life has been good. I still love London, even more than before, and feel really at home in the East End, although it has taken some adjusting. The new place is old, grotty and cheap, but in the best place in the world, so great.....!

Wooohoooo! My new home.

So I am going to be living round the corner from the Columbia Rd Flower Market, and today was the first time I've ever been there. It was amazing, and I loved it. Also I loved the house and think the people I am going to live with will be great fun. The room was the biggest and nicest I have seen so far.
I am really pleased it has all worked out and I have found somewhere. And it was a shame I encountered some not so well mannered people on the journey, but it was still good to have seen some of the amazing flats and apartments that I saw, but I feel good about this one. I loved walking up from Liverpool Street, through Spitalfields and Brick Lane, and RichMix is just round the corner. Couldn't be better. So weird how things work out. I have been going over to the east end on an off for the last year, gradually getting to know it better and really loving it. I imagined how I'd love to have lived there but couldn't see how it would happen, and now it has, with the job and the move, and it feels great, I am really looking forward to it. Can't wait.

2009 The year of London and many joys

Last year was an amazing year in so many ways. So many of us came so far, and through so much. I am grateful for my lovely friends, my great friends. I am so happy for my dear friend who finally got her little girl. I am so happy that things have turned around for her. And I am so happy that so many of my friends have had good years also. And amazingly I am finally moving jobs and home, London zone2 here I come! Thank goodness. I can't believe that I got the new job,the payrise and the opportunity to move, I am so delighted. And I am still loving life so much. I have the odd down day but I work through it and the mood moves on. My family are all doing so well, and I am so pleased for them.
This last year has really been a time of healing, cliche of course, but it really has, and not just for me but lots of people around me. I am grateful to those who have helped in that.
I am very excited about what this year may bring. Firstly I move from the suburbs and lodging to somewhere urban with other adults, woohoo and have a more normal life! Secondly I move jobs, get challenged in my work but get paid tons more for doing it! Then I get to go on lots of dates!!Yeehah!
Sometimes I do think I have limited time at this cos of the age thing, but as long as I am not looking my age or acting past it, I will make the most of it.
Got to get back to the gym cos the 2 weeks in the US over Christmas really added a few pounds and I really feel sluggish, but apart from that, everything is good. Just need to find new home and then sorted.