tired

I am very tired, and not sure why I thought it would be a good idea to a mini triathlon having just discovered my start time is 7.50 on sunday morning, a time when I am usually in deep sleep! Not only is this just a start time but it means I have to be there at latest by 7,15 to set up. Now most people who know me will know that I am not a morning person. But those who know me best will know that it would take something fairly special to get me out of bed that early on a sunday morning, but that special thing would definitely not involve excercise!!! Much as I feel better after a swim, bike, run, I can't honestly say that I would rather do that than grab some wine and watch a film or "the wire". Never.
But I am doing it. Been out on the bike tonight. Aiming for a good race time, i,e,not to be last!! Also all this exercise does have a goal, and it is a hard body, but not the a hard body as from American Psycho, just a hard body for a nearly 40 year old, in attempt to hold back the aging clock.
Things on my mind: Why oh why oh why do people of all ages, including what looks like mothers of young children, in their damned stupid 4x4's drive down residential built up streets festooned with houses, shops and children, at a fast rate of knots, as if they were on the motorway? Riding my bike tonight I had to get out of the way as several cars fitting the above description bombed it down the road. Really upsets me. Its just so selfish and inconsiderate.
Silver lining, Rilo Kiley, song of moment for me, got it stuck on my mind as I try to drown out the beautiful but painfully sorrowful tunes of Dallas Green and City and Colour.
Questions? How to keep going on? How to avoid being miserable and not go back to writing in my other miserable blog?
Californication is being repeated on Five, yippee. Still won't get to see it though.
Got to get up early. Wish I could get my head clear. Hope life changes in some way soon.