lovin' life

It's amazing to me how time can heal. When you're in the midst of the pain and crap, it feels like it will never end. Then one day, you realise, it's over. It is so over. It is fantastic. And maybe, if you are lucky, you get a new appreciation for life, that sets you off on new paths and somehow motivates you in ways you have wanted before but not been able to achieve. I cannot believe how much energy I have right now. I am loving this season of life I am in. It has to do with letting go of alot, alot of dreams, that I thought were what I wanted, then I discovered actually were not necesarilly really about me. It is all so freeing. I am almost vibrating with life! hahah! Sounds so cheesy, but it is true. I am just loving each day (thanks Ronan!!Hahaha) and feeling like everything is possible and is an adventure. I have so moved on from a year ago, so enjoying being me, though of course with a constant kick up the arse, sure I need it more than most, but so almost happy! Wow! How amazing is that.
Well, looking forward to lots of stuff and getting a new job and moving and lots of stuff....can;t wait...
xx

Months of rain,,,,

Been a summer of clouds and rain. Some good times, some crap times. Thought I had kind of talked myself into sorting some stuff out, like where to live...til I came back to London and fell in love with it all over again. Spent my first weekend down at the Southbank and BFI and Hoxton Hotel and had a blast...doesn't help a thing of course...but had fun. Am definitely enjoying life a lot more. Thinking back to a year ago this time I have come a long way. Had a great night out the other night and a great date, and that all helps. Trying to figure out how to get all the stuff in my head out of my head and onto paper. Read The Gum Thief, and still love Coupland, no matter what the critics say. Music is going well...lots of stuff moving me, and finally got the new lens for my camera so looking forward to using that. Also thinking of the big celebrations coming up and looking forward to having a blast and finally getting to dance...can't wait.